suddenly realize this project is really on the cutting edge of the current computer tech.
Wireless Multihop network?? I was told that MIT, UC berk, CMU, all those techie institutions are all trying to be the first to get it work. Queen's one, not really working too... the grad student just showed me yesterday, I guess wireless connection is not really stable.
And getting this shit to connect to the Internet..? This is just... one more step ahead... how da heck this comes to my hand?
so this term's lecture is over and there are only 3 exams left before it is DONE.
It was hell busy, but passed like bullet train... Still recall how reluctant I felt about coming back that day @ the HKG. still remember that I was telling my friends about how staying here 1 more yr is holding me back, I still think somewot the same but it's not as much a problem for me now. Gotta stay put n finish the study for this degree, it is against my will to drop out anyway. So it is nth bad, and I just needa be patient.
I picked a final year project n signed contract w/ a supervisor. em... this makes me feel a little bit more secured than b4. well, although I dun feel much about it now, it's like I've done an assignment only, but I am sure I will be glad that I am set on sth later when my feeling's coming back.
actually it's not an easy project at all.. but as said earlier, I dun care if it's a bitch project, it's like I am looking at my own matter as if they are stuff of a total stranger. it's set n I can focus on sth instead of wandering around, that's a good progress to me.
well, u are writing more on my page than on ur own now, haha.
em.... maybe I do believe there are ppl who just click too... I probably mean "I dun see how it's coming (to/into/towards my way) "
I mean... I'll try my best if there's sth I want... but if I have to go so out of my way, if I have to turn into another person to get it. I dunno if I would... (this is more unsure than negation) I think being the person who I am, it means a lot, though not that I really liked myself, but staying true to myself is a really big thing to me. well, in fact, I really hate myself not being the kind of person who can get the stuff I want easily, but I am sure I would hate myself even more if I fake anything to get the stuff. I dunno, yet another dilemma... u feeling bad that u can't get sth coz it takes sth not ur character to achieve... n u hate changing urself even more...
Do I really hate changing myself or I am just not strong enough to?
If I do sth I dun normally do to achieve sth, does it mean I really became another person?
follow up, If I have to change a lot to achieve sth, does it really mean it's not worthy? or how do I value sth like that?
well, these apply to a lot of things... I really hate living for another yr here in Kingston, but I need to do it to get my degree... and apparently I am doing it now. I can sacrifice for my degree, wot about for other things? wot would I sacrifice?
I am having more questions than answers these days. wot's worse is, to some of the above Qs, I used to have a decision on where I stand, but now I flips back to unsure now.
Took some foto today, a day of lecture and lab work
This is my first lecture today, started @ 8:30am I've had a lot of lectures in this hall thru-out the 2 n a half yrs.
My second lecture of today, 10:30~11:30am The biggest lecture hall in the computer science department building.
After 2 more lectures from 11:30am~1:30pm (took some pics in this 2 lectures too, but dun wanna post them up) At 2pm, me and my friends went to this lab... So... today, I have to do a lab, to operate these robot arms... em... Actually... I am definitely NOT excited to do it...
"Do not enter the robot work area" (coz it gets u high!!!???)
Our school has only 4 of these robot arms, when we get to the room, they are all occupied, so we just need to wait... My friend Isaac is reading the instruction during the time.
Derek is definitely bored of waiting.
3:45pm Great! We waited for 2 hrs b4 we get onto one machine.
Me trying to curse on the robot arm so that it does wot I want it to do. So, of coz at last I get it done, but by the time I leave the lab, it was 7:30pm Well, it's not particularly difficult thing, but the instruction is really written badly, so it takes a long time to make a sense out of it.
There are some more foto taken, but I really wouldn't wanna show anybody my long hair look... Wait till I cut it sometime :\